UGHHHH. Either my being sick, or the hospitality I enjoyed last night, caught up to me this morning. So here I am in bed at 9 am. I think I'll make today my catch-up day for all the papers and projects I have next week. I'm also starting to visit Montisorri schools in Athens and Gwinnett next week, and hopefully start training in Macon for the new Starbucks...Busy busy busy....Jody, TJ, and I all had our interviews yesterday. We all did really well and there's no reason why we shouldn't all get hired. I can't wait. I'm so glad good things are really falling into place for me. I'm getting through school, hanging out with the coolest/my favorite people down here, hopefully having a great job, (soon) and still learning so much about myself. I love the place I'm in. I've been kinda stressed about guy stuff but I'm really ok with it ending it. (Details upon request...though anything good on here anymore is friends only anyway.) 

I'm finally starting to ground myself and feel like I don't need to be attached to someone to be happy. It would just be nice, that's all. The bed's cold and a little lonely.

But who cares, David Bazan is TOMORROW!

Yes. Yes I am. Last night was like one of the best nights of my life. Plus things could not have worked out better. I love it when things don't work out exactly how you wanted but really its better. It's about time for some new girlfriends. 



And the people you love
But you didn't quite know
They're the places that you wanted to go

1. I've come to realize that my ex: will always be my best friend

2. I've come to realize that I: need to get out more!

3. I've come to realize that I love: the person I’ve become

4. I've come to realize that I have: commitment issues

5. I've come to realize that I lost: my faith in people alittle

6. I've come to realize that I hate it when: I get shy

7. I've come to realize that marriage is: probably a dream for me

8. I've come to realize that, somewhere, someone is thinking: Who is John Galt?

9. I've come to realize that I'll always be: a romantic

10. I've come to realize that I have a crush on: too many guys

11. I've come to realize that the last time I truly cried was: today (see below)

12. I've come to realize that my cell phone is: one drop away from being completely broken

13. I've come to realize that when I wake up in the morning: I need someone next to me

14. I've come to realize that before I go to sleep at night I: can’t turn my brain off

15. I've come to realize that right now I: should be working

16. I've come to realize that babies are: a subconscious biological goal that is screwing with me

17. I've come to realize that I get on LJ: for default social contact

18. I've come to realize that today I: don’t suck at teaching so much

19. I've come to realize that tonight I: am having dinner with two really cool girls

20. I've come to realize that tomorrow I: have a date

21. I've come to realize that I really want to: drink the drink, taste the fruit, and resign myself to the influences of each.

   Oh man, a lot happened this weekend. Eclipsing it all was that Mark and I finally, actually, broke up in order to really date other people...and it's just a horrible twist of fate (which I completley deserve) that it happened when I was starting to have a change of heart, not to mention right in the middle of a Rilo Kiley phase.


heres to all the pretty words
we will never speak
heres to all the pretty girls
you're gonna meet
(we are) breakin up
am i breakin up?

did my heart break enough?
did it break enough this time?

I just got a new apartment right around the corner from this one! 


I love it when the shit you go through has a purpose. Not one you try to convince yourself of or "a learning experience" but just like this.  Now I have a really big, potentially really nice apartment in a great house that's still a part of the little strip that houses some of my favorite Milledgevillians. And all the responses to me needing a place to crash felt so good to hear. Since it's a holiday weekend I'll have time (and help) to get out of this place and into my new one before school starts again...as well as go home and visit Athens. 

Funny how miracles like this never happened to my old self.

So my apartment flooded with all the rain this week and its not being fixed until next week. And things were going so great, too. 

If you know of anywhere for rent, or anyone who needs a roommate, please let me know! Even a couch I could sleep on a few weeks/months. I cook, I'm clean, I don't smoke cigarettes but I like people who do. I'm wonderful to be around. Give me a place to stay! It will be like having a really nice pet, who cooks for you.

            "I love sleep. My life has the tendency to fall apart when I'm awake, you know?"

Ernest Hemingway said that but I totally could have made it up...and I am just dying to go to sleep. I slept in today and ruined my bitch of a sleep schedule. I'm with my first grade class tomorrow. I need to have enough energy to pretend like I know what I'm doing.

...When I think about it, the only things I've a read by Hemingway are "The Sun Also Rises" (which I was obsessed with in high school) and "A Farewell to Arms" from a few years ago....IThat's really sad. It makes me wish they had 24 hour libraries. Imagine the kind of crowd they would attract!    Speaking of great crowds, I might get to play hostess this weekend. :) I'm hoping something will happen because I'm actually staying here this weekend.    Athens is no cheap mistress, especially when I just found out the Mville Starbucks wont open until January.

Other than that news, my week has been good. The crazy, hectic so-glad-its-over kind of good. And really I'm kinda glad to relax and stay at home...as much as it freaks me out that I've started calling my little apartment here home!  :)

An’ I don’t want much outa life,
I never wanted a mansion in the South.
I just-a want to find someone sincere
Who’d treat me like he talks,
One good man.
Oh honey don’t you know that I’ve been looking.
Oh, one good man
Ain’t much, honey it ain’t much,
Oh, it’s only everything.
All right? 

So, I am satisfactorily twenty-one. My birthday weekend was great and crazy and not long enough, especially since I've started school. I started my student teaching last week. (Today was actually the first day of school.) So Friday, my first day as a full-fledged adult,  I worked in my classroom, then ran to an hour and a half long job interview, was late for summer camp teacher debauchery downtown, and then tried to go to a party but had so many birthday shots chased by twice as many breadsticks earlier in the night that as soon as people started dancing I knew it was a mistake...which was fine, really because I had to get up way too early the next morning to meet my family at the Georgia Aquarium. I'd never been and it was my parent's big present to me (...or so I thought. I'm typing on their other gift!) and it was amazing. I didn't care at all about how bad I felt from the night before or that I lost my lighter on the way in. It was breathtaking, and really very spiritual. I've started reading more about the origins of life and how everything sprang from the oceans. If you haven't been to the aquarium, you really should. You even get to see beluga whale sex.  I could have spent the entire day there, but I had birthday things to do...which didn't get done at all because I finally passed out in the car and got up just in time for fancy fondu dinner with Jacob and Jessica, Liam and Mark, then drinks and my birthday ritual of falling asleep to the movie Cool Hand Luke. It was soo rough to go back to Mville to work in the classroom and get ready for Wednesday, the first day of school. But I love my host teacher and the kids are great. The ones who can't handle saying my last name just call me "Miss Teacher" : )   And Jim came through town that night, he was on his way back from Statesboro and seeing about his new apartment. We celebrated my first day of school with Josh -- a friend of mine from the Special Ed. program who just moved in behind me. This guy is so awesome I decided not to move out. I can deal with living in the cave for a few more months...especially since I am home for A WHOLE WEEK! That basically means Atlanta, Braves games, and Starbucks and a neverending quest to catch up with old friends...I'm determined to show off my fortitude for drinking and my Shel Silverstein tattoo.